Job Search

The fact that I have a degree means nothing in 2013.  I am either over qualified or under qualified for every job Ive applied to is starting to get me down.

I need to think about some serious rebranding of my skills.

Nkenge

Oh Lord, I Want You to Help Me!

I had one of those days where it just doesn't pay to get out of bed...

Last night I watch a very famous women talk about when she wanted to take her life and that she told her daughter good bye. I understood the darkness she was experiencing.  I don't want to take my life but I do understand how all the stuff we go through daily can bring you to a low point.  I hit near low today. So much has compounded that I'm just downright angry with everyone right now.  I'm not even sure want to do about it.  I decided to pray and try to lift this funk that descended on me today.

Nkenge

Scratch under the surface

My emotions were resting just under the surface today.  I was and still am extremely weepy.  I could barely hold back tears and frustration.  To work out that tension I forced myself to head out to the gym.  that workout was just what I need.    It got my mind off my pity party and focused on keeping up with my kickboxing class.
Sometimes it helps to just punch it out. I feel great. Sore but great I came home to new opportunities I would not have been able to see had I sat home and stayed in that negative sad place.

Nkenge.

No Job Now What

I lost my job. I am was a teacher. I really liked my job. I complained about it, dreaded it some days, believed I was grossly under-paid but I really liked my job. I loved my students and my co-workers.  I have been teaching for about 8years and This spring my principal called me in and told me they were letting me go because student enrollment was down and they couldn't afford to pay me.   I knew layoffs were coming I just didn't think it would be me.  So, I had faith. I'm a good teacher I will find something. Summer is over teachers are back at work and sadly  I didn't find anything.

I am now wrapped in fear that I will be unemployed indefinitely.  Since all my teacher friends trekked back to work on Monday. I have had an increasing fear about what is going to happen to me.  So to keep from going crazy I am going to write the blog. Trying to unwrap the fear gripping my heart and stand in faith like my mother has taught me to do.

Nkenge