The Trials of Job

There was a man in the land of Uz, named Job who loved God and avoided evil.  He had a very great household with 7 son and 3 daughters. So perfect was Job that the devil tried to turn him away from God.  So began the trials...Poor Job lost everything. I mean EVERYTHING! House,kids,cattle, and sheep.  Never once did Job give in and forsake God. So, the story goes eventually because of his sacrifice God returned to Job everything he lost and more. 

 Today, I felt a lot like Job.

Since the 1st day of school things have gone haywire daily .

Day 1 they lose my daughter

Day 2 I lose it on the campus police while buckling her seat belt

Day 3 Same cop Same issue

Day 4 Almost smooth nope. She didn't eat says I didn't pack a lunch and I have an altercation with a parent 

Day 5 Hubby picks her up and say I understand your frustration  Now, I know I can be quick tempered and I was thinking it was me until hubby did pick up and said yeah its manic.  

  So today almost broke me. I said yeah ride the bus because my spirit cant handle car pooling.  The bus driver dropped her off at the wrong stop.  I didn't know until a lady called me and said are you Georgia's mom? Yes!?.  We have her in our office at XYZ Elem.  I'm on my way.
So yes I believe the devil/demons are trying to break my spirit.  I am not letting them do it.  I refuse to cave in and give up.  We will work through the madness.

Nkenge

Today was a good day...

I couldn't sleep last night.  My anxiety keeps me up before big events. So I didn't sleep at all excited about my daughter starting school.  No words could express my jumble of emotions. She was ready and there was no need for my nerves. 

My little lady

Feeling Fine like '89

What were you doing this time in 1989. Me I was getting ready to start High School at Miami Killian.  I had picked out 3 possible outfits.  My hair was in curlers and I was thinking of all the possible things that was going to happen in the upcoming school year.

Today I am thinking about combing my daughters hair. Picking the perfect outfit, and all the possibilities for her over the next 13 years.  The majority of the people I met in  Kindergarten were still the people I knew by the time I made it to high school.  We traveled together for 13 years.   I curious and hopeful that  she meets great kids that stick with her for the long haul.  Kids/schools are so different today.  Well, I hope if you are reading this an have kids headed to school soon or have just started that they have a great year.

Nkenge

Faith and Love

We attended the wedding of a family friend this weekend.  Weddings always make me think of my wedding day.  It started out simply awful.  A near hurricane hit Miami that morning and I had an outside wedding planned.  It still was a beautiful event. Just moved inside.  I never complained and for a second thought it wouldn't happened. Nor did I forget myself and go bridezilla crazy.  I just knew I would marry my husband at 6pm on June 16th.
The wedding this weekend brought back to mind the feel I had that day. I was full of faith, hope, and love.  Sometimes, the most unexpected things make me remember to have faith in my chosen path.

This path wasn't chosen by me.  I would have much rather been getting ready for new students but I am taking steps on the path in faith that it will all work out.

No Job Now What

I lost my job. I am was a teacher. I really liked my job. I complained about it, dreaded it some days, believed I was grossly under-paid but I really liked my job. I loved my students and my co-workers.  I have been teaching for about 8years and This spring my principal called me in and told me they were letting me go because student enrollment was down and they couldn't afford to pay me.   I knew layoffs were coming I just didn't think it would be me.  So, I had faith. I'm a good teacher I will find something. Summer is over teachers are back at work and sadly  I didn't find anything.

I am now wrapped in fear that I will be unemployed indefinitely.  Since all my teacher friends trekked back to work on Monday. I have had an increasing fear about what is going to happen to me.  So to keep from going crazy I am going to write the blog. Trying to unwrap the fear gripping my heart and stand in faith like my mother has taught me to do.

Nkenge