Job Search

The fact that I have a degree means nothing in 2013.  I am either over qualified or under qualified for every job Ive applied to is starting to get me down.

I need to think about some serious rebranding of my skills.

Nkenge

The Trials of Job

There was a man in the land of Uz, named Job who loved God and avoided evil.  He had a very great household with 7 son and 3 daughters. So perfect was Job that the devil tried to turn him away from God.  So began the trials...Poor Job lost everything. I mean EVERYTHING! House,kids,cattle, and sheep.  Never once did Job give in and forsake God. So, the story goes eventually because of his sacrifice God returned to Job everything he lost and more. 

 Today, I felt a lot like Job.

Since the 1st day of school things have gone haywire daily .

Day 1 they lose my daughter

Day 2 I lose it on the campus police while buckling her seat belt

Day 3 Same cop Same issue

Day 4 Almost smooth nope. She didn't eat says I didn't pack a lunch and I have an altercation with a parent 

Day 5 Hubby picks her up and say I understand your frustration  Now, I know I can be quick tempered and I was thinking it was me until hubby did pick up and said yeah its manic.  

  So today almost broke me. I said yeah ride the bus because my spirit cant handle car pooling.  The bus driver dropped her off at the wrong stop.  I didn't know until a lady called me and said are you Georgia's mom? Yes!?.  We have her in our office at XYZ Elem.  I'm on my way.
So yes I believe the devil/demons are trying to break my spirit.  I am not letting them do it.  I refuse to cave in and give up.  We will work through the madness.

Nkenge

Get on the Bus....Georgia?

Since the 1st week of school made all my crazy bubble to the surface I decided to let my daughter ride the bus home.  She asked me daily if she was riding the bus so I caved.  It was slightly self serving since I admit I am not cut out for that carpool life.  Like the worrier that I am I penned her bus card securely to her backpack and told her repeatedly in the morning she was riding in the afternoon.

I hope this works out better for me. She's a big girl and can handle a little freedom.  Me or Granny will be there to take of off the bus. I can also save about a tank of gas a week. Sitting in the Texas heat I was burning about a 1/4 tank of gas waiting on school to get out on A/C.

I wonder how other moms deal with sending their kids to school for the 1st time.

Nkenge

Labor Day

It's Labor Day weekend and I really didn't do much. I couldn't sleep and my mind would not stop jumping around from scenario to scenario with job opportunities and possibilities. I'm lucky for really good friends that keep me laughing and upbeat.

Nkenge

Oh Lord, I Want You to Help Me!

I had one of those days where it just doesn't pay to get out of bed...

Last night I watch a very famous women talk about when she wanted to take her life and that she told her daughter good bye. I understood the darkness she was experiencing.  I don't want to take my life but I do understand how all the stuff we go through daily can bring you to a low point.  I hit near low today. So much has compounded that I'm just downright angry with everyone right now.  I'm not even sure want to do about it.  I decided to pray and try to lift this funk that descended on me today.

Nkenge

Today was a good day...

I couldn't sleep last night.  My anxiety keeps me up before big events. So I didn't sleep at all excited about my daughter starting school.  No words could express my jumble of emotions. She was ready and there was no need for my nerves. 

My little lady

Feeling Fine like '89

What were you doing this time in 1989. Me I was getting ready to start High School at Miami Killian.  I had picked out 3 possible outfits.  My hair was in curlers and I was thinking of all the possible things that was going to happen in the upcoming school year.

Today I am thinking about combing my daughters hair. Picking the perfect outfit, and all the possibilities for her over the next 13 years.  The majority of the people I met in  Kindergarten were still the people I knew by the time I made it to high school.  We traveled together for 13 years.   I curious and hopeful that  she meets great kids that stick with her for the long haul.  Kids/schools are so different today.  Well, I hope if you are reading this an have kids headed to school soon or have just started that they have a great year.

Nkenge